Sometimes... 💕

I felt the pain stabbing my heart with millions of memories.... memories of the people who  once taught me The  phenomena of forever and then I saw them  forgetting what they taught ...

I was sitting on a  bench on a dark night gazing the stars,  feeling lonely yet filled with  thousands of thoughts dancing around me scaring me with their existence... 

I closed my eyes took a deep breath and then just wrapped my hand  around my arms...  Pretty scared and lonely enough for the tears to roll  down from my eyes  through my cheeks giving me the awkward cold feeling which made me scare a little more...

Once again I just took a deep breath,  this time heartbeats  beating a little more faster than usual..  this time I tighten my grip around my arms a little more..  I gazed at those twinkling stars telling me that they are lonely yet happy..  telling me it's ok to walk alone  than walking with the people who don't even trust their own Shadows.. 

Stars signed me with the twinkle  that this is what life actually is...  teaching me that sometimes life will break you from the bottom to the edge...  maybe not every time but most often you will have to hug  yourself a little tighter..  Calming yourself... explaining your own soul that.. not every time everyone will be there around you to hold you..to take care of you...to tell you that everything will be fine...sometimes you will have to do it by yourself..